past the wishing

One thing: television really has a way of sucking motivation from a person. Or let me just say a person like me. I need to cut myself off from that vacuum.

Another thing: I'm tired of making promises I don't keep and all of that--especially to Jesus.

As Sara Groves puts it, I'm "Past the Wishing."

I'm standing at the foot of this mountain
Wishing so bad that I could touch that sky
But in the time it takes to make my wish
I never take a step and I never try

I wish that I were closer to Jesus
But not enough to get me out of bed
For an early morning prayer before the
Rushes of my life take me instead

I'm past the wishing
Past the wishing
Past the wishing

I'm gazing in these deep well waters
Where the pennies of my life have all been cast
I've decided I am going to save my money
To do something that lasts

You've shown me my man of Macedonia
You're calling me further on
And I'm tired of saying it's a nice idea
I wish it could be done

I don't wish that I could go, I am going
I don't wish that I could be, I am being
I don't wish that I could do it, I am doing
By the grace of God I am doing