aisles

Sometimes I walk down the aisles of the library and want to pull out every title for just a few sentences of interesting information--you know, if I don't have time to read the whole thing. Something I didn't know 2 minutes ago. Sometimes when it sounds neat for me to regurgitate something I've read in such a journal or book, I feel smart and energized about the world. I tell things to my friends--or classmates--because maybe the enjoyment of learning is contagious. I want to be more this way when it comes to the meaningful matters in life. Rather than throw down some statement about how illiteracy breeds poor adherence to treatment among A.I.D.S. patient populations, I'd like to be energized about the things I'm learning from God. I'd like to be so bold as to bring these things up to whomever--my classmates. Why is this sometimes hard for me?

A book I'm reading suggested I write Jesus a love letter, so I tried in the library at school between classes. My "love letter" comes out more like a description of why I need Him more than I'm often willing to admit, in areas I don't often think about, and why He's so much better for me than anyone else, and why loneliness may in fact be a gift from God. Trusting that He knows how to orchestrate the areas of my life which seem so uncertain.

But really, how does my life evidence my convictions? I want to live ALL the days of my life in honor of Him, representing Him, rejoicing in His works. When He has something to say through me, I pray I will know it and live it--and speak it if that's what He desires.