I'm wondering if I've been taking too much time for myself, or if I've not taken enough. I'm wondering if taking more time will make me feel more or less overwhelmed, and also how to deal with the frustration I've laid on myself. I want to cure myself, but don't know how that could ever work out. It doesn't work out.

I wonder if writing poetry would help me to feel more alive right now, or if it would be too much of a distraction from the ever-important grades. I guess learning is more important than grades, and I'm not learning a whole lot right now. But I do have more than tonight--and this is enough time to do well and to learn something before the paper is due (before the papers are due).

I'm being very vague right now and wondering if poetry full of vagueness and ambiguity is more or less interesting than poetry full of details. It probably depends on the poem, the topic and the poet... oh, and also how much interest the reader has in trying to figure something out for him or herself.